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Powerless Trilogy
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The Powerless Trilogy
by Lauren Roberts

In this series by Lauren Roberts, the Elites have magical abilities and the Ordinaries do not. The Ordinaries were banished from the kingdom thirty years ago and harboring an Ordinary now means death for the Ordinary and banishment for the person hiding them. As for the Elites, there are Offensive, Defensive, Mundane (neither Offensive nor Defensive), and Fatal abilities.

A list of sample abilities:

Veil - can make things disappear (including themselves)

Shell - has hard skin

Cloner - make clones of themselves or others

Jolt - electric power

Hydro - water power

Phaser - able to walk through objects

Wielder - can use the powers of others nearby

Tele - telepath

Psychic - can read emotions

Healer - can heal people of disease or injury

Bluff - can sense lies

Hyper - heightened senses

Flash - increased speed

Blazer - fire power

Crawler - can crawl up walls

Shimmer - light power

Silencer - can prevent an Elite from using their power

Transfers - can infuse powers into inanimate objects and materials

Illusionist - can create very realistic illusions

Blink - can teleport

Sight - records what they see and can play back at a later date

Blooms - can manipulate plants

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Powerless
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Proceed with extreme caution! Long ago, there was a plague in Ilya which caused it to be quarantined. It had no contact outside of its borders, and the people inside needed to find a way to survive the plague itself and over time, they evolved. The fast became faster. The strong unbeatable. Those good at hiding could become the shadows themselves. Many of the people became what are called Elite. But there were those who did not evolve, called Ordinaries. For decades, the two groups lived side by side with few issues, until King Edric. During his reign, a new sickness swept through the land. He claimed the Ordinaries had carried this disease (that was the reason they had not developed abilities themselves) and now their sickness was causing the Elites abilities to be weakened. Even though the disease was probably just a common illness, the king used it to instate the Purging. That was thirty years ago. Now, Paedyn is an Ordinary who lives in the slums with Adena, for whom Paedyn steals fabric and food. Paedyn must hide the fact that she has no ability. Only Adena, a Phaser who can walk through solid objects, knows. Kai is second son of the king and half-brother to the heir to the throne, Kitt, who he is currently sparring with. First, they use abilities then they use swords, and Kai beats Kitt in both. Kai is brash and callous and excellent at fighting, born to be an Enforcer, while his brother will make an excellent king with his compassion and how studious he is, along with his dual powers of fire and water. They have a run in with Blair, a general’s daughter who intends to catch herself a prince, but whom neither of them likes. She intends to fight in the upcoming trials. She wants to win them, but so does Kai. And though Blair is a strong telepath, called a Tele, Kai’s ability is quite unique. He can use the power of anyone around him. He can wield water and fire when near Kitt or he can use Blair’s telepathy, even against her. After leaving Blair and stopping in the kitchens, Kai is called to see his father. Paedyn starts her day by noticing that there are two fewer guards than there should be, although she’s not sure why. Then she robs a shop apprentice, bumping into him and taking three of his six shillings. But while she pickpockets him, she feels a piece of paper inside a hidden pocket and takes that too, out of curiosity more than anything else. She finds a shadowed alley where she can read the paper: the meeting starts at 12:15 am, bring the supplies. The note specifies the meeting location and that is what really catches Paedyn’s attention. The location used to be her house, back before her father died and she had to live in the slums. Back before she met Adena (Adena was running from a guard and phased through Paedyn, who tripped the guard to help her and an alliance was formed). Now Adena uses the fabric Paedyn steals to sew and sell while Paedyn robs. Paedyn sees a young boy getting whipped, probably for stealing, and walks away since she cannot help him. She tried that once and it only made it worse for her and the person she was trying to save. She turns to walk away and runs right into an Imperial Guard who asks what her ability is, he’s allowed to ask anyone he wants to on the order of the king. She tells him she’s a psychic. He tells her to prove it. She looks at him and notices the alcohol on his breath, his wedding ring moved from his left hand to his right, and the way he ogled her and tells him that his wife left because he cheated on her, but that he wants her back. Apparently the truth hurts, he backhands her and tells her to get lost. She goes to meet Adena for lunch. Paedyn warns Adena at lunch about the missing guards and tells her to be careful. Paedyn messes with her ring and her dagger, the only tokens she has from her father, before heading back to work. She is nearly done for the day when she spots an Offensive, likely an Elite who is of high status or possibly even Royal, with a heavy bag of coins. She decides to take at least half of the coins and does her usual bit of running into her mark and pretending to be clumsy. The man flirts with her a bit, but she manages to get the coins and get out. Kai goes to his father in the throne room. He has a difficult relationship with his father though it is not always bad. Kitt, on the other hand, loves their father. His mother died giving birth to him and he has been raised to be king, attending council meetings and listening to treaties being written. Kai with his Wielding ability will become the Enforcer (the king’s right hand, commander, and executioner). His training was of an altogether different sort and involved suffering, a lot of suffering. His father tells him reports of a family on Loot Alley who has been accused of sheltering an Ordinary, Kai needs to take care of it if it’s true. The punishment for the Ordinary is death, for the family harboring them banishment into the Scorches, the desert around Ilya. They could potentially make it to one of the cities on the other side of the Scorches but it’s unlikely. Kai, accompanied by two Imperials, seeks out the family. He uses his gift to see that the mother is a Healer, the father is a Brawny (very strong like the king), and their two sons have Mundane powers of Bluff and Hyper (I.e. detecting and heightened senses, respectively). As both parents are Elites, their children are guaranteed to be born Elite though they may not be strong. Kai quickly finds a trapdoor in the floor where a little girl is hiding. The mother reveals that she couldn’t have more children, and they wanted a daughter, so they adopted this one from the streets when she was a toddler. After a fight, Kai has the family tied up and taken quietly by the Imperials to the gates for their immediate banishment. He will take care of the girl, Abigail. But he doesn’t kill her. He sneaks around and sees the family already walking across the Scorches and the guards walking away from the gate in the other direction. He uses one of the guard’s quickness, Flash, to run the little girl to her family. He leaves her with them, committing treason, and even gives Abigail a small knife for protection, before returning to the city. They may not make it to the cities of Dor and Tando but at least they’ll be together. He still feels terrible about the whole situation. On his way back through the slums, he runs physically in Paedyn. He is her mark with an excess of coins. This is when they flirt, and she lifts his coins. While she does that, he tests her ability and feels nothing. He’s startled and she walks away, he lets her instead of calling her back. He just lets an Ordinary walk away. He’s just committing treason left and right today. He turns down an alleyway and is jumped by four men: two Brawnies, one Blazer, and one Crawler who can literally crawl up walls. They want his coins - which is when he realizes his purse is substantially lighter than before. He fights the men and is winning when another man steps into the alley. Just today, Kai has seen Shimmers on the street, who can pinpoint their ability into a laser, and other Defensives who can throw up a shield. But this man is a Silencer, able to suffocate another’s power. This Silencer is incapacitating more than just Kai’s ability but his mind and body too. He feels like he’s going to die and a crowd forms around them, watching. Just before Kai passes out, he sees silver hair come up behind the Silencer. Silver hair just like Paedyn’s. Seeing Kai on the ground reminds Paedyn of when her father died, when he was killed and she watched him die - unable to do anything to save him. She won’t let that happen again today. She attacks the Silencer and all the training her father instilled in her lurches to the surface. As she beats the Silencer, she remembers how her father was stabbed through the chest with a sword… by the king. After she knocks the man out, guards come to help Kai, and she realizes he is the prince. She tries to run but Kai grabs her. The Silencer is imprisoned but Kai wants to know why he can’t feel any power from her. She makes something up about her Psychic power being mental and weak - he asks for a demonstration. Seeing the raw knuckles and the dusty shoes, she correctly guesses that he banished several someones to the Scorches, but they fought back before they went. In addition, since she’s heard nothing about this from the gossip mill, she guesses that he wanted it done quietly. She fools him and he leaves. She gets back and gives Adena all the details. The next morning everyone in the slums is watching her, knowing what she did the day before. She notices a banner announcing who will take part in the trial coming up, which celebrates the purge. Kai and Blair, as well as six other contestants. And right at the end of the list is her name. Paedyn Gray. Kai tries to get information from the Silencer that attacked him but has no luck. He takes another, stronger Silencer (their power works on other Silencers, too) and they put the Silencer in a Mute cell - made from materials that Transfers had imbibed with the power of Silencers so it can smother abilities. He tells his father and Kitt that he’s gotten nothing from the prisoner. His father believes the Silencer is with the Resistance, who believes that Ordinaries should not be killed. He also believes that some Fatals survived though he had them all killed during the Purging, and those who survived have joined the Resistance as well. The royals could be overpowered because of them. The king tells Kai to either get information from the prisoner or kill him. Kai is in a mood while training, thinking about Paedyn, which his brother Kitt has definitely noticed. Jax, whose parents died in a shipwreck when he was a child and who has become like a younger brother to the princes, comes to chat and he and Kitt tease Kai. Soon enough, Kai sees Blair and Sadie (a Cloner) coming to talk. They give Kai a flyer announcing the contestants. He finds out that Jax is going to be competing and that makes him more nervous, he will now need to protect both of them during the trial, but it’s a huge honor to compete so Kai is happy for Jax in that regard. Then his eyes snag in Paedyn’s name. Before Paedyn even has a second to think, an Imperial comes to take her to the palace. The trials start in two weeks, but she will do interviews and training during that time. She’s given a few minutes and runs to say goodbye to Adena. When she returns to the guard, there’s a young girl with him. They go to a carriage with a boy waiting inside. His name is Ace, he’s an Illusionist, and he’s rude. The girl is Hera, and she is a Veil. She can make herself disappear. The contestants are given rooms in the palace and personal Imperial guards - Paedyn’s is named Lenny. The contestants are kept isolated in their rooms for two days before attending a welcome banquet with all the contestants and the king and queen. Paedyn gets ready for the dinner with a bath but doesn’t know what to wear. She peeks her head out the door to ask Lenny, but she meets someone else instead. Someone who is quite charming and seems kind, who introduces himself as Kitt. As in Prince Kitt. Soon, Paedyn’s maid Ellie comes to help pick an outfit from the clothes provided to her and get Paedyn ready for the dinner. Ellie quickly warms to Paedyn and tells her that she heard these trials are going to be different, but she doesn’t know how. Paedyn is the last contestant to arrive at dinner, and they all introduce themselves. Soon the king and queen enter and give a rousing speech about what an honor it is to fight in the trials. Then they eat. During dinner the queen and king ask Paedyn about her abilities and saving their son, the king has never met a psychic. She explains that it’s a rare and not particularly powerful gift, according to her father, but it has its perks. The king reveals he knew her father, who was a skilled Healer. He would come to the palace to help in the winters when their own Healers were overwhelmed. For the next couple of days, the contestants train together though none of them use their powers yet. Interviews will start in the next few days, which will allow the public to get to know the contestants and choose who to back. Paedyn gets a look at Kai and Kitt’s matching tattoo over their hearts which is supposed to represent the different magics working together in Ilya and the four surrounding landmarks: Plummet Mountain in the north, the Shallow Sea to the west, the Scorches to the East, and Whispers Forest to the south. Paedyn practices throwing knives, she’s very good at it, and Kai distracts her by throwing one at her head. She ducks and then rounds on him, but he insists that he knew she would duck, or he would not have thrown it. He’s always very flirty. Paedyn is not so lucky with Blair, who throws a blade while Paedyn talks to Kai and knicks Paedyn’s ear. Blair explains that she’s just marking her target ahead of time. Kai braids Paedyn’s hair back for her and recommends she gets her ear healed. Paedyn prepares for the interviews with Ellie, who tries to settle Paedyn’s nerves. She’s escorted to the Bowl, which is basically a giant amphitheater. She can see the Pit, where the trials will take place. The contestants are taken to a room to wait until the interviews start. Pae speaks to Andy, who reveals that she’s Kai and Kitt’s cousin and lives at the palace as a handy, she and her dad fix stuff. Paedyn talks to Kitt a few times and every time she is thrown off by how much he looks like his father. It is disconcerting and she has to remind herself to play the role she needs to play in order to survive and be friendly to Kitt. Then the contestants are all paraded out and shown off. Jax shows his Blink power, he can teleport. Braxton is a Brawny. Andy can shapeshift. They all give a demonstration of their power meant to wow the crowd. Then it’s Paedyn’s turn. She speaks to the host, Tealah. They talk about Paedyn saving Kai, life in the streets, and her power. When asked what she wants out of the games, the correct answer is the kingdom’s motto: to honor my kingdom, my family, and myself. That answer has been given by every other contestant. But instead, Paedyn says she expects to survive. Afterward, she has Tealah call down random audience members, and she uses her observation skills to “read” them. The crowd eats it up. Kai still has to work while he trains, but all he can get out of the Silencer is a name: Micah. Kai thinks it’s his name. The next morning, Kai stumbles into Paedyn before breakfast. Easy to do since their rooms are directly across the hall from each other. It’s too early for breakfast so he sneaks her into the kitchens, his frequent haunt, and she gets to see a different side of him. Later, Kai spars with Kitt, who complains about how penned in his life is since he’s going to be king one day. He’s not even allowed out of the palace! Then Kai sees Paedyn practice fighting alone like she usually does, but he can tell something is bothering her this time. She’s sloppy like she normally isn’t. He goes over to bother her and distract her. It turns into a no magic fight and Kai goes easy on her. That only enrages her further. He ends up with a broken nose and a dagger thrown at his head before she tells him not to go easy next time. At dinner that night, Paedyn learns that she needs to have a proper dress for the upcoming ball honoring the trials. It’s in a few days. She tries to rush to her room after dinner but is stopped by Kitt, who escorts her. He asks her if he can accompany her to the ball and she eventually accepts - it will look good and it will be good for the country to see her with him. Then she begs Ellie for help picking out a dress. They decide to hire a seamstress, and Paedyn’s thoughts go to Adena. Guiltily enough, it’s pretty much the first time she’s thought of Adena since leaving the slums. Ellie says she will send Lenny to get Adena and if Adena accepts, she will come to the palace and be Paedyn’s seamstress until the end of the trials. Win-win-win. Kai surprises Pae by knocking on her door and offering to teach her how to dance, which she initially refuses but eventually accepts the offer. She gets to see his real bedroom (he’s currently in the same wing as the other contestants but that is not where he usually stays) and the dancing does not go well. She will need a lot of practice. The next day, she goes with Lenny to pick up Adena. Adena thanks Pae profusely for not forgetting her and Pae responds that she never will, knowing full well that she didn’t think about Adena for days. Adena starts to brainstorm ideas for the ballgown and what color green they might use, green being the color of Ilya and the unofficial color the women wear to the ball, but Paedyn has a different idea. At the ball, all of the men arrive first dressed in black. When the queen arrives, fashionably late, the women are allowed to make their own entrances. Kai has been trapped into bringing Blair and he begins to feel the regret right away. When Paedyn shows up, she’s dressed completely in silver to match her hair, the “Silver Savior” as people have called her since rescuing Kai. Kai watches Pae dance with his brother, remembering all their dance lessons, and feels jealousy though he believes that he shouldn’t. Soon enough, Kitt goes to get some drinks, and Kai takes his chance to dance with Paedyn. While they’re trading flirty jibes at one another, the ballroom is attacked. A throwing knife grazes Pae’s arm and Kai pushes her to the ground, guarding her body with his own. There are explosions and screams. Kai throws up a forcefield and takes Pae to the guards at the outskirts of the room, instructing them to take her to a safe room, but she refuses to go. So, he carries her there himself. While being carried, she sees the man that she robbed and took the note from his pocket. She realizes from what he was buying in the slums that day that he made the leather armor for the attackers. On the way to the safe room, she and Kai run into Kitt who is also refusing to go to a safe room because he wants to fight (Pae has noticed that the attackers are Ordinaries, and she wants to get close to them) but Kai begs Kitt to stay safe. For the kingdom, for him. Kitt will do it, but he’s bitter about it. Once in the room with the king and queen, most of the contestants, and some other nobles, Pae gets her arm healed up. Kitt paces until Paedyn demands answers from him. He explains about the Rebellion and how they believe the Ordinaries have teamed up with the Fatals - Elites deemed too dangerous to live with the other Elites, so the king had them banished from the kingdom. He only keeps one of each in his court: a Silencer, a Mind Reader, and a Controller. What he doesn’t understand is why the Rebellion was here today. Pae asks what he thinks about how Ordinaries were purged from the kingdom, or tried to be at least, it seems a lot more are there than they thought. Kitt spouts the same rhetoric as the king, that the Ordinaries are diseased and having them around makes the Elites weaker. He believes it’s true. After they’re released, Pae goes back to the ballroom instead of to her own room. She sees Kai badly injured with a throwing knife still in his back. She panics at seeing him hurt. She takes the knife out so he can heal himself and he tells her casualties were small. Two Elites and four Ordinaries, with only two taken as prisoner, so several got away. Then Kai heads to a meeting with the king and Kitt. The first trial starts the next morning. Kai wakes up from a drugged sleep in the Whispers, an ethereal forest full of threats (plant, animal, and contestant). Usually, the trials take place in the Pit where they can easily be viewed by the public and broadcast to the outside, but soon Kai sees a Sight, which records everything they see and can play it back later on. He finds a leather band on his bicep and a note in his pocket. Whoever has the most leather bands at the end of six nights wins this trial. Kai knows that this is set up so that the contestants will be forced to fight, also not what normally happens. His mind turns to Paedyn and how she is faring. He climbs a tree to find water and make his way towards it. On the way he finds a couple weapons and canteens. He catches a rabbit and starts a fire to cook it; he’s quickly interrupted by Brax. Neither of them wants to fight but neither wants to give up their band either. The start to fight all out but Brax gets Kai pinned between him and the fire, he ends up burning Kai pretty badly, but Kai gets the upper hand and takes Braxton’s band. Brax strides off and Kai wraps his burnt arm up, but he will need to find something to better stave off infection before too long. He can’t be dying because of this. Paedyn wakes up and is able to find a bow and quiver as well as arrowheads to make her own arrows, plus a shirt to put over her very skimpy silk one she wore to bed. She kills a rabbit and is looking for water when she spies a lake. She didn’t see it when she looked from above, but the lake is surrounded by trees so maybe that’s why. She heads towards the lake but when she gets closer, she sees Kitt’s dead body floating in it. She rushes toward him, which is when she realizes that it is not real. Then she sees herself as a girl starving and pleading for help and assumes she’s delusional, likely from lack of water. But she quickly becomes surrounded by young Paedyns and she realizes this is the work of Ace. She calls him out and shoots him in the leg, but she only shoots an illusion of him. The real Ace comes out and surrounds himself with copies of himself. It takes her a minute, but Pae realizes one Ace is sweating – that would be the real Ace. She shoots him in the thigh with an arrow just as Ace lunges forward and slashes her with a concealed spear. He cuts a big slash in her stomach, so instead of staying and fighting for his armband, she runs and tries to patch herself up. But she’s losing a lot of blood. She needs to find water to clean her wound and get rid of her dehydration, but she sees a fire first. She stumbles toward it, lightheaded and reckless, but it’s her only choice. It’s Kai’s fire. She aims an arrow at him, trying to hide her injury and pain while demanding that he leave the site. She falls from blood loss right afterward. Kai focuses on finding her wound instead of taking her band and leaving her for dead. He commands her to stay awake, but she just can’t. He panics when she passes out. Pae needs water and he struggles to find his canteens. When he finally spots them, he notices a small box of healing elixir with a needle and thread that Braxton must have dropped during their fight. What luck, it will be able to save Paedyn’s life. He applies the elixir to her wound, and the sting hurts badly enough that she wakes up. He talks to her, distracting her while he stitches up her wound by pissing her off then apologizing afterward. He explains about the elixir, and she asks if he killed Braxton, looking surprised when he says no. He asks who hurt her and after a few tries she tells him it was Ace and no, she didn’t kill him either. She asks why he’s helping her, and he tells her that winning by default is no fun. The real reason is that he wants to see her, talk to her, tease her. He’s intrigued by her and always wants to be around her, and he can’t stand the thought of not having her near. And although he’s been okay with playing along that the two of them are enemies, that is no longer going to work for him. He wants her to want him too. Paedyn asks what this means for the two of them, the fact that he patched her up and didn’t even take her armband in the process. He proposes they become partners. After a minute of thinking and deciding that the two of them trust each other at least a little bit, she agrees. Not much later, she realizes that his arm is badly injured and that he used all the healing tonic on her. She makes him a salve from the plants that grow near the water (thank goodness her dad was a healer) and they discuss his childhood. She has already told him that her father trained her how to fight since her “ability” was not physical, and how her mother died shortly after she was born, now Paedyn asks him to tell her about his life. He reveals that his childhood with Kitt was good, but when they weren’t together, they were training for their future roles. And for Kai, that meant torturing and being tortured. By the king, by other people too. But often by the king. Kai explains that he does not want to be king but mostly because he would never want Kitt to become what he is… a monster. A monster who was made without any choice in the matter, but who now knows the role he must play. After wrapping his arm up, they are attacked by several wolves. They fight them off together and decide they make a good team, even if Paedyn doesn’t take orders well. She declares she’s not one of Kai’s soldiers and he agrees with her, he doesn’t care about his soldiers. When she realizes that he has a bite mark on his arm from one of the wolves, she prepares another salve and jokes that he keeps getting hurt so she will touch him. He tells her he only wants her hands on him if she wants it too, she applies the salve even after hearing this. Three days later, they haven’t run into any other competitors, so Pae insists they split up. They meet that night at camp with nothing to show for it, but Paedyn has something on her mind. She wants to know, for real, why Kai didn’t take her band and leave her for dead. He doesn’t have an answer that he’s willing to share so to buy some time, he asks her to dance with him. He trades a dance for one of her questions, just like when he was teaching her before the ball. They dance and he asks her if it’s so surprising that he doesn’t want her to die, she just says yes. He tells her that he’s always watching her, that he can’t stop, but she just accuses him of being an incorrigible flirt. Then he turns the tables and asks why she didn’t shoot him before she collapsed. She says that just because she was going to die doesn’t mean she wanted him to as well. He points out that that doesn’t sound like she hates him, but he thinks because she doesn’t hate him, she hates herself instead. His father comes up, how she doesn’t like him, and his mother, that she allowed Kai to be tortured - but Kai doesn’t think she had any other choice. Their dance gets a little more tense in all the best ways and just as Paedyn is going to tell Kai something, they’re interrupted by Sadie asking for their bands. As they tell her no, Kai slips a throwing star into Pae’s hands since her own weapon is not in grabbing distance, and he still has his sword with him. Then Sadie strikes, grabbing Pae and putting a dagger to her throat. She threatens to kill Pae if Kai doesn’t give up his band, but Pae stabs Sadie in the stomach with the star and an all-out fight breaks out. A bunch of Sadies are fighting a bunch of Kais (both of them are using Sadie’s cloning power) and Pae just needs to find the real Sadie and disable her. Sadie finds Pae first with a couple of clones. Pae fights back well and takes out a few of the clones, she even gets the upper hand on Sadie but then one of the hurt clones grabs Paedyn from the back. Sadie murmurs that Paedyn is never going to give up and implores Paedyn to believe that she doesn’t want to do this, but she has no choice. Just as Sadie is about to plunge the dagger down and kill Pae, Kai stabs Sadie in the stomach, killing her, getting rid of the clones, and saving Paedyn. But now Paedyn is about to spin out since he killed Sadie to save her, so Kai distracts her for a moment until she’s calmer, then asks her to stay put as he moves Sadie’s body. Paedyn is antsy until Kai returns, and she realizes that he buried Sadie and even laid flowers on her grave. But only after grabbing her leather band so now they both have one. He lays down next to Paedyn and distracts her from thinking about what happened a little more so that she’s finally able to fall asleep, thinking about him and how he’s different from what she thought he was. The morning of the last day, they get instructions to meet at the edge of the Whispers. The king has orchestrated a bloody finale for the viewers. They meet Jax and Andy on the way, they’ve taken Ace’s and Hera’s bands, and had a run in with Blair where no bands were exchanged. When they all arrive at the edge of the forest, Blair steps out at the same time, followed by a desperate Braxton, Hera, and Ace. The three of them need a band. Braxton throws himself at Blair, then the two of them turn on Andy and Paedyn as Jax fights Hera. Kai turns to Ace and fights him fairly well until Ace uses Paedyn against him, showing an illusion of her injured. It gives Ace the upper hand until Jax throws Kai a throwing star. Ace throws up fake visions of himself, taunting Kai until Kai locates the real Ace and throws the star into his chest. That’s when Kai realizes that this too was an illusion, he just threw the star into Jax’s chest instead. Kai is immediately distraught and kneels next to Jax, his little brother, begging Jax to hold on. He wants to kill Ace more than ever, but Jax will die without a healer. He picks up Jax’s body (he’s not moving much) and uses Braxton’s Brawny power to carry Jax, sprinting towards the crowd gathered to watch the spectacle. There must be a Healer somewhere in there. When Kai gets close enough, he drops to the ground with Jax and pulls the star out of his chest, knitting the flesh as quickly as he can. He thinks he’s too late since Jax isn’t breathing, but a moment later Jax’s eyes open and they hug. The sun comes up, the first trial is over, and Jax is not dead. A few days later, the contestants are brought back into the Bowl so the first trial can be broadcast to the public, or at least the highlights. The crowd sees them fight and is charmed by Paedyn and Kai when they aren’t fighting. Pae watches the fights she wasn’t part of: Andy v. Blair, Kai v. Braxton, Hera v. Blair, and lastly the fight in which Braxton kills Hera, just before the end of the trial. That means there are seven contestants left: Andy with three bands, Kai and Paedyn each with two. Later, Kitt grabs Pae and asks to show her something, taking her to the garden. He asks her for her thoughts on the trials, saying that she may be the only person who doesn’t lie to him, and she tells him the trials are a tragedy. But Kitt still believes that the Ordinaries are diseased and can contaminate the Elites, making them weaker, though Pae points out that they lived together for decades without that issue. She asks what the point of talking is if he refuses to listen to her, but he points out that she won’t even look at him and asks her why. She can’t, because he looks too much like his father. She doesn’t say that, only explaining that he looks like someone she used to know, but she’s slowly realizing that though Kitt and his father may look alike, they are not the same. He brings up her vision of him in the trial and asks why she seemed distraught when she saw his body, and she explains that seeing that made her think of all the good that he could do, if he just ruled as he should and not as he was told to. She brings his attention to the huge fountain filled with shillings, money that could feed families in the slums that instead are just wasting away under the water. He agrees, saying that he will have them collected and dispersed. Paedyn doesn’t know if he will follow through, but at least he listened. They make a deal; he will listen to her if she can continue to look him in the eyes. Lenny doesn’t usually guard Paedyn’s rooms at night so she decides to sneak out to her old house where what she believes is the Resistance will be meeting. But when she arrives and picks the lock, the house is dark and empty. Or almost. A voice pipes up, saying he was wondering when she would finally show up. It’s her guard, Lenny, who is a Hyper who thinks that king’s logic doesn’t add up and has joined the Resistance. He takes her downstairs where she meets the Resistance leader leader, Calum (mind reader), and some more minor leaders of their own areas or cells, Leena (Ordinary), Calum’s daughter Mira (Silencer), and Finn (Ordinary), who she pickpocketed the Resistance note from. Calum explains that he knew Paedyn’s father Adam because he was one of the original Resistance leaders. The Resistance has existed for over a decade, locating Ordinaries and teaching them to survive. The cell leaders meet and make plans; those leaders then disseminate the plans to their own people. But the Resistance has recently begun to pick up steam, and the king can’t keep them hidden any longer. Yes, the Silencer that Paedyn beat up, Micah, was one of theirs who had a vendetta against Kai and let his anger get the best of him, getting him caught. As for the attack on the palace, that was supposed to be reconnaissance but some of the members got caught and needed to fight their way out. Those who didn’t get out took suicide capsules, so they didn’t get questioned or give up any information. And now they want Paedyn to join them, they’ve been waiting ever since they realized who she was (Calum thought she was dead before then). They intend to make their presence known to Ilya during the last trial which Lenny has heard will take place in the Bowl. They will need to secure the king during that time, and he will be in the waiting area below the Bowl. There is a secret passageway that leads there- Lenny has seen it - but he doesn’t know where it comes out. They need Paedyn to find out, using her relationship with Kitt if she needs to. Kai is in a terrible mood, killing your brother on accident will do that to a guy. It doesn’t get better when he sees Paedyn with Kitt in the training yard, talking and giggling together. When Kitt leaves, Pae approaches Kai and challenges him to a shooting match. It takes him a minute before he realizes that she’s distracting him from himself. Takes less time to realize that he’s going to lose, and she’s shooting with her left hand! So, he takes drastic measures and stands as closely behind her as he can, whispering and touching as she lines up. He can be distracting too. She doesn’t do as well this time, but she turns the tables and does the same to him. But instead of touching his skin, she doesn’t. Only brief little whispers and he needs more. He loses the match, turns around, and presses her hand to his chest firmly. Neither one of them knew he could be affected like that by the barest of touches. She leaves her hand on his chest for a moment before declaring Kai the loser. Pae is hanging out with Kitt in the kitchens and the differences between him and his father just keep piling up. In fact, she likes Kitt. They’re becoming friends. Short lived friends, she knows, since she is also using him to find the passageway she needs. When they’re kicked out of the kitchens, she tells him that he should see his people in the slums and how they survive so he can help them when he becomes king. He should break out of his gilded cage at least for one night, she’ll give him a tour. He says he’ll think about it before the king comes to get him for a meeting. He sends Kitt ahead but then the king turns to Pae. He makes it clear that she is not going to win in the trials (she’s tied for fourth after the scores from the first trials and the public voted) but he’s more concerned about her relationship with his sons. He warns her to stay away from them. The next night, she gets ready for the ball - she’s wearing red this time. She even admits to Adena that she finds Kai confusing and captivating, but she needs to keep her distance from him. Paedyn attends the ball with Kitt again, but he is quickly stolen away by Blair. Pae runs into Kai and spills his wine all over him. He was watching her dance with Kitt and now he’s drunk. They go into the shadows of the garden to clean him up and things get tense. And a little serious. Then he brings her onto the dance floor for a dance and after a moment is chastised by his mom for monopolizing her time (she calls him Malakai). He challenges Paedyn to give him a compliment, and she tells him that his hair looks soft, which gets her teased, so she changes it and accidentally says something honest. She likes it when he drops his mask and smiles at her for real, she wishes he would do it more. Like the way he feels when she laughs. She realizes that she really likes him and starts to have a panic attack, not helped by the super tight laces on her dress. Kai escorts her off the floor and back into the shadows where he loosens her dress for her and teases her into distraction. After she can catch her breath and is okay, he laces her up loosely and walks her back to her room. He returns to the ball and gets drunk with Kitt. Kitt asks about the Silencer and Kai admits that he killed him. Then Kitt asks for details about the girl on Loot that Kai was sent to find. Kai reveals that it was a young child and Kitt guesses that Kai let her go instead of killing her. Kitt guessed at his brother’s actions a few years ago and is the only person that knows that Kai does not kill the young Ordinaries. Kai is a trained killer, but he holds onto this line for himself. Kitt also talks about Pae, about how she tells him the truth, and he wants to know her better. He asks Kai about his thoughts on Pae, but Kai is not ready to discuss how he feels - which is enamored. Soon the dance floor starts to empty as people find their way to the arena. Braxton, Jax, and Ace wait to challenge Kai to a fun little brawl. He doesn’t want to do it and definitely doesn’t want to be drunk for it, but he knows what’s expected of him. The second trial starts the next day. But it’s not just the four of them fighting, Andy, Blair, and Pae were allowed to change out of their gowns before joining them. The contestants will be randomly paired for a fight, this is not normal for the trials but then again, nothing about these trials is normal. Kai gets Braxton and he pins him after a short fight. Andy gets Ace and their fight is over quickly when Andy pins him. Then it’s Blair and Paedyn. Kai gives Pae a few tips before she goes out. She’s stronger than Blair, use that to her advantage. And distract her opponent. It takes a few tries and Pae gets a cut on her cheekbone, but Blair leaves with a broken nose. The contestants are forced to fight several rounds until they are exhausted and at odds with each other, often having to be forced apart by Imperials to end the fight. Kai wakes up on Plummet Mountain - feeling like shit between the fighting and the drinking and the drug they used to get him to the mountain unaware. He sees a note scrawled on his hand “she said I could touch her when I’m sober.” Something Pae said the night before, taken slightly out of context, but he doesn’t want to forget it. Andy, Braxton, and Blair wake up nearby. Their instructions say that they need to work as a team to reach the summit of the mountain and beat the other team: Paedyn, Jax, and Ace. Of course, they were forced to fight the night before to cause discord and now they need to work as a team. They start their climb, which the instructions say will go on all night (it’s already past midday). About two hours in and Blair is chucking rocks at Andy’s head when Andy screams. Not because of the rocks, but because she’s been bitten by a snake. In fact, they’re surrounded by snakes. Kai focuses Blair and the two of them use her telepathic powers to hurl the snakes out of the area. Once they’re clear of the most immediate danger, they need to get to the top before something happens to Andy. Kai carries her on his back. Paedyn’s team is making slow progress, marching for hours without food or water and yet the summit remains far away. Ace is upset that neither of the others wants to talk to him (consequences, my friend) and causes an illusion of a snake near Pae’s ankles that nearly causes her to fall down the mountain (not helping), but Jax blinks and saves Paedyn before she falls. He tells her his brothers would probably never forgive him if he let her die. He wonders how Kai is doing since he’s afraid of heights and reveals that Kai’s “training” was not always physical. The king used to force Kai to climb the highest trees in the Whispers until the king believed that Kai’s fear of heights was gone. After all the different training sessions, Kai would return to his room covered in blood and sunk within himself. That’s when Kai would attack his bed posts with his sword, Paedyn saw all the notches when he taught her how to dance. Soon enough there’s a rockslide and they have no choice but to try to dodge the rocks and not fall. Pae gets hit in the temple with a rock and may have a concussion, but they all make it out alive - even Ace. Andy is fading fast but their group is finally nearing the top of the mountain. They reach the peak at the same time as Paedyn’s team and receive a message from the waiting Sights. The game isn’t over yet. There will only be one winner, whoever claims the green flag in the center first. Pae takes this chance to bunch Ace in the face, she’s been wanting to do that for hours (or since they met). They fight and Ace starts to choke her with a stick she can’t see. She goes limp, which forces him to let go of her. He thinks she’s passed out from lack of oxygen and approaches her with a rock; he’s going to kill her. She grabs him and breaks his arm instead, sitting on top of him and is ready to kill him for the multiple attempts on her own life. But then she spots Kai and knows it’s not her life to take. Ace almost made Kai kill his own brother, too cowardly to do it himself. So she nods to Kai, and he comes over. He checks her over first to make sure she’s not hurt, then tells her to go grab the flag as he turns to Ace. She does just that. Kai killed Ace and Blair killed Braxton. She actually tried to kill Paedyn, but Kai deflected the blow, which then hit Braxton. It’s been days since then and he’s returned to training with the court Silencer, learning to use that power. Now he’s in a meeting with the king, who finds it interesting that Paedyn won the last trial. Slummers. Don’t. Win. And Kai must win the whole thing - or else. Kai leaves the room followed by Kitt. Kitt says he understands why Kai’s relationship with their father is strained after all of Kai’s training, but everything the king does is for the best. Kai scoffs. He used to cut Kai open to make Kai sew the pieces back together himself… to train him. So that he would become a monster for him and Kitt to use as they pleased. This strikes Kitt, hurts him. Kai tells him he thinks Kitt will be a great king who he will serve proudly. But he needs to think for himself because the king won’t be there to do it for him forever. Pae retreats to the gardens to sit under a low hanging tree that’s she’s started to use as a haven of sorts, only to find Kai already there. He’s been using this spot for years. In fact, he fell out of this tree once and broke his arm. One of his many broken bones. He reveals that when he was learning how to heal, he had to break his bones to heal them back together. She is struck by how similar their childhoods were, each being trained by their father to make them more than what they were. The difference is their fathers. Hers did it out of love and concern, his out of greed. He teaches her how to thumb war, and it ends with him stroking her arm up and down and Paedyn announcing that she should leave. He points out that it doesn’t really sound like she wants to. Paedyn has made zero progress on her mission for the rebellion. She, Adena, and Ellie prepare for the final ball the next day when they’re interrupted by Kitt. If Pae thinks she can get him in and out of Loot without being recognized, then he wants to go with her. He wants to see his people. He wants to start making his own ideas. They go right then. He takes her into the dungeons to the last cell where he presses a specific brick, which opens to reveal a keyhole. The key is always kept on him, he shows it to her on his keychain. They enter a tunnel that branches off toward the training grounds but they’re going to go to the other exit, in the waiting room of the Bowl. This is exactly what Paedyn needed to see. They get to Loot, and he’s overwhelmed by the smell. He sees the thieves and the people performing for money. He sees homeless tents and children without families. He sees where they are whipped for stealing. And he sees where Paedyn sleeps. He thanks her for trusting him with this, with her. He needed to see all of this. She thanks him for trusting her too. That night she visits the rebellion leaders, except Mira, who is tending to her mother. Paedyn explains about the tunnel. She tells the others she can get the key from Kitt at the ball the next day. Since the trial will start the following morning, he won’t have time to do anything about it before the rebellion reveals themselves. She will pass the key to Lenny, who will enter the passage and let anyone else through the door at the training grounds. Kai has nightmares that night. Of Paedyn killing herself by putting her dagger in her heart. Of Jax with a throwing star in his chest. Of all of his victims. Pae can hear his screaming from her own room and goes to comfort him. She goes into his room and wakes him, but at first, he’s discombobulated. He pins her to the mattress with a dagger to her throat before he realizes what is happening. When he does, he puts the dagger away and looks disgusted with himself. After a minute of staring at each other, she stands to leave but he asks her to stay. She does, crawling into his bed, realizing that he expects everyone to leave him. He curls up around her and thanks her for staying. She’s surprised but she admits that she shouldn’t be after learning more about him. She feels safe, content, and happy in his arms and falls asleep to him braiding her hair. He barely sleeps, intent on memorizing her face and savoring every moment she’s there. In the morning, he goes and gets them breakfast. The tension is palpable and they almost kiss, but at the last moment, she takes a step back and goes to her own room to prepare for the ball. That night she dresses in dark blue and silver like the sky at midnight. Kai thinks she looks incredible, he’s so tired of fighting against his feelings. But she’s here with Kitt. For a minute he forgot that he isn’t the person who gets what he wants. He’s a monster created to be used by the king – and he doesn’t deserve her because of what he does. She dances with Kitt and feels incredibly guilty but manages to slip the passage key off of his ring and steal it without Kitt noticing. She passes the key to Lenny, then dances with Jax. The dance leads her to Kai, who knows she’s avoiding him. Suddenly the room feels too small and when the song ends, she rushes to go outside. Unfortunately, she’s stopped by an Imperial that says she doesn’t have permission. Kai stops the Imperial as the guard gets grabby and demands that Pae be allowed outside, regardless of if they’ve been told the contestants are not allowed to leave. Kae follows Pae as it starts to rain and they’re quickly soaked. He tells her he can’t stop thinking about her and he wants to be with her - he knows she feels it too. She denies it but he doesn’t believe her. He kisses her, just a whisper of a kiss, and she wants more. But they’re interrupted by an Imperial who says the King needs Kai urgently. When Kai arrives, the King just wanted to interrupt them. He doesn’t want his son with a Slummer, the people shouldn’t see them together, and Kai realizes that the king hates Pae in particular. Just like how Pae hates the king. Kai nearly kisses control of his powers but luckily, Kitt is there to defuse the situation. The last trial starts the next day. It’s a maze that changes thanks to the Elites manipulating it, Blooms. The contestants need to make it to the center of the maze and kill the person held there- rest assured they deserve it. They have committed treason against their country. Kai sees Paedyn before they enter the maze, and they share a smile before disappearing from view. She runs into the maze but hits nothing but dead ends, growing more and more frustrated as she goes. Then she realizes that the path is growing thinner. The hedge is going to enclose her in its thorny branches and kill her. She runs for the next path, which is not narrowing, and almost makes it but one of her legs is encased by the thorny bushes. She has to pull her leg out since she doesn’t have her dagger, and the thorns pull at her boot until it comes off, then shreds the skin of her ankle and foot. But at least she’s free. After more dead ends, the path narrows again but this time there’s nowhere to go. Pae doesn’t run but the maze eventually stops narrowing, and she has just enough room to walk with the bushes brushing her shoulders. Only one contestant can get through, which will force them to fight each other just like the king wants. Soon enough, she runs into someone else. Kai is having just as much trouble when the hedge paths narrow to the width of one person. The first person he meets is Andy, who is in her jaguar form. Problem is, the longer she shifts the harder it is for her to remember herself and Kai can tell from her eyes that it’s been too long. She attacks him and he tries to use Jax’s power to get away but Jax moves out of range. Kai is forced to fight her as another jaguar, but he can’t stay in form long or he will also forget. By the time he switches back into his own body, he’s very bloody, full of gashes from her claws with one bad bite in his shoulder. He runs, he hears screams, and then a Bloom comes too close and he’s able to use their power. Blair nearly kills Paedyn (she wants to, but she doesn’t want to make it quick) when Pae is able to distract her and knock her out with a punch to the temple. It won’t last long, so Pae runs quickly. After more wrong turns she sees the path to the center in front of her. Kai opens the maze up with the Blooms’ power before they realize what’s happening and he makes it to the center of the maze before they can stop him. Just as Pae walks in on the opposite side. She doesn’t see him. She only sees the prisoner waiting in the middle and takes off running for them. It’s Adena. Paedyn gets to her before anyone else and Adena only has enough time to say she’s sorry before Blair follows Paedyn into the circle and uses a tree branch to impale Adena through the chest. Pae begs Adena to hold on but Adena just makes her promise to wear the green vest she worked so hard on. Paedyn promises never to forget Adena and blames herself for the fact that Adena is even here. It was supposed to be her that died in the arena if it was anyone, Adena shouldn’t even be around. Kai wants to help but he doesn’t know how. He sees Jax come out, followed by Andy, now human again. He hears the screams of the crowd as they celebrate Blair’s win. He makes his way over to Pae and then notices as the crowd’s screams turn to those of terror. He looks to find the rebellion holding his parents and his brother. No one in the crowd is fighting back, the Mute that the Bowl is made of makes sure they can’t. But neither is his father who is in the Pit. Then Kai feels it, they’re surrounded by Silencers. Pae’s hate for Blair, hate for the king, threatens to overwhelm her but then she notices the Resistance. They’re here. They escort the royal family close to the contestants as Calum introduces them. They are Ordinaries. They are Fatals. They are the Resistance. And they want to rejoin Ilya. If that is amenable to the king, they all win. If not, they will kill the princes. Pae was not told about this part of the plan. She looks at Kitt, and he glares back at her. He looks exactly like his father now and she knows that he knows how the Resistance got inside. Meanwhile, Kai has been training to use Silencer powers, and he overpowers the Silencer holding him before erupting in Kai’s flames. He doesn’t understand why, if what the Resistance says is true, if Ordinaries have lived among them this entire time, that the Elites’ powers have not dwindled. But now is not the time to puzzle it out. He lights the Silencers on fire. Pae runs, leaving Adena’s body behind, leaving the Resistance to fight without her, and is reminded of the last time she ran. When her father was killed. She intends to run straight to Loot but she remembers her promise to Adena and goes to the palace instead - to retrieve the vest. She plays up her injury and is taken to her room by an Imperial, who even calls a healer for her foot. She’s patched up and now wearing the vest, she sneaks out of the palace and is running down the road toward the Bowl to get back to Loot when a man holding his head steps out in front of her. The king, all alone. He confesses that he’s known she was an Ordinary for some time, knew she was involved in the Resistance, knew what her father was doing before his death. But he needed her alive, until now. She screams at him about Adena, but he clarifies that she is the one that killed her friend. He warned her to stay away from his sons, not to do too well in the Trials. This is on her. Then he attacks her with his sword. Kai fights in the Bowl. He sees Kitt fighting like Kai has never seen before. Enraged, nearly feral. Then Kai sees that there are far fewer people fighting and that the Resistance is trying to escape. He plans to follow them. Pae fights the Brawny king. She accuses him of making up the weakness of the Ordinaries and he says that she can’t prove anything. He will not allow his land of Elites to be sullied. By the end, she’s broken his elbow and now they both have head injuries. He’s carving her up with his sword after knocking her to the ground, a slice on her jaw, a design over her heart, as he tells her it wasn’t him that killed her father. An easy fiction for Paedyn’s child brain to fill her hazy memories with. It was Kai that did it. It was Kai’s first kill as a matter of fact; he even vomited afterward. As the king is about to kill her, desperation makes her grab his ankle and pull. He’s already unsteady from the wound to his head. He falls and she’s able to grab his sword as he stands. She stabs him in the heart, twists, and pulls the sword back out. Then she throws a dagger at his throat. It’s only afterward that she notices the Sight watching her. She grabs her dagger from the king’s body and runs, only doing so for a moment before a dagger whizzes past her. Kai is following her, and he knows what she’s done. He knows she killed his father. He easily catches up to her. He knows he should kill her, but he can’t. He lets her go, telling her to run before he finds someone stronger than he is to do what he can’t. Kitt is king. He’s harder than he expected to be, filled with everything except for kindness and still desperate to make his father proud. He calls Kai in and gives him his first mission as Enforcer. Bring him Paedyn Gray.

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Get ready... Adena is running from an imperial. She has gotten so hungry that she finally tried to steal something to eat and botched it so badly that the guard is now hot on her trail. As she runs, she sees Paedyn and is distracted by the loveliness of her silver hair. So distracted that Adena is about to run right into Paedyn, so instead she phases through her. She keeps running and Paedyn sticks her foot out to trip the guard running after her, then catches up with Adena. It’s the first day they met and they quickly decide they’d make a good pair. Adena can sell her clothes and sewing projects for coin, whatever they can’t buy Paedyn can steal for them. Adena’s first project is going to be making Paedyn something suitable to wear. Makoto sees the list of names that will be contestants in the Trials, and he recognizes Hera’s name. He rushes to get to her, knowing that this is most likely a death sentence for Hera, and kicking himself for not seeing her the night before. He reaches where she is just in time to see Hera disappear inside a coach. He recognizes the person that climbs in after Hera as the Silver Savior. As they roll away, a girl in the crowd bounces up and down waving at Paedyn. He recognizes the girl as a seamstress who sells on one of the corners in Loot. He has a small shop in Loot that he almost never leaves, and she once talked his ear off when he accepted a shipment. He’s taken by her sincerity as she runs next to the coach waving goodbye. He gets an idea. A crazy one. Adena hasn’t been alone long before she is hungry enough to try to steal again. Since this is usually Pae’s job, she’s still terrible at it and is again caught by the vendor and catches the attention of an imperial guard as she runs away. She tries to shake the guard and heads down an alleyway when she’s grabbed by strong arms and pulled backward. The person holding her phases through a wall, forcing her to do the same, before the residue on the hands causes Adena to sneeze. The hands let go of her, grossed out. She’s more excited about the fact that she is meeting another Phaser than the fact that they just pulled her into a building, she’s never met another Phaser before. After a tense conversation in which she realizes they’ve met before, and their first impressions were just as bad as their second, when he explains why he helped her escape the guard. He knows that Adena is friends with Pae and tells her that he never got to say goodbye to Hera. If he can get into the palace, he can phase through the corridors until he finds where Pae and Hera are staying. Then he and Adena can talk to them again, possibly for the last time. He tells Adena that he needs to give something to Hera. And to get through the halls unnoticed, he needs Adena to make him look like an imperial guard. In exchange, he can give her what she needs to survive. Food, water, supplies. Adena accepts his offer. He tells her to call him Mack. Adena makes plans for Mack’s guard uniform. He shows her where they can work - his one room home which doubles as his workshop for blacksmithing. Adena needs to take his measurements for the uniform, which requires him to remove his shirt. He makes her laugh. They begin to think that maybe they don’t dislike each other as much as they’d thought. Adena sends Mack out to get material for the uniform (polyester) and snoops a little through his work while he’s gone. She cuts her palm on one of the blades he’s made and when he returns, he has to patch her up before she can start working. This requires him to lift her onto his worktable, which requires grabbing her around the waist. Scandalous. Two days later Adena has been working in Mack’s workshop nonstop. He sends her home when she’s practically falling asleep at the table and then cleans himself up from the soot of his own work. He’s interrupted by Adena pounding on his door. On her way home, she passed by a group of three men who said nasty things to her and made threats, even following her. She didn’t know where else to go. She’s a mess, she’s been crying, and he comforts her. He’s happy she came to him - he wants her to know she should always come to him - but he doesn’t know how to deal with those emotions. And he shouldn’t want that since he doesn’t expect to be around much longer. He refuses to let Adena leave again, setting her up to sleep on his bed and making a spot for himself on the floor next to her. But once she’s tucked in, he takes some of his knives and goes out to find the men who threatened her. Three days later, Adena has stayed over every night since. Mack has been getting breakfast for them before she wakes up. They work side by side; he shows her some of his new weapon designs including a knife that hides a hidden blade in the hilt and four knives that can be joined together to form a throwing star. He begins to teach her how to fight, worried that she can’t protect herself. She likes it when he stands behind her and shows her how to stand, how to move her body. She likes it when he touches her to correct her stance. She likes him. He calls her by a nickname: Dena. It’s jarring to her because the only people to ever know her well enough to call her a nickname were her mother and Pae. It feels almost intimate. Adena puts the finishing touches on the guard uniform and attempts to teach Mack how to sew. It’s not pretty. They discuss their plan for the day they’ll entire the palace. Mack asks about Adena’s family, there’s not much to tell. It was only ever her and her mom, and her mother died years ago. She asks him about Hera, and he doesn’t give her any information. But he does reveal that his dad was a blacksmith. Mack learned how to smith and how to fight by watching him. He also reveals that he doesn’t think they should see each other after their “mission”, as Adena calls it. He doesn’t tell her that he will destroy her if he stays close to her, it’s what happens to those important to him. And he doesn’t want anything to happen to her. Adena deserves the best life. After finishing the uniform and matching leather mask, Adena leaves his workshop and heads back to the “fort” she shares with Paedyn. She won’t be going back to Mack’s place now that the job is done. Adena grabs the clothes she’s already sewn from the fort and goes back to the corner where she displays the clothes and tries to make some money. But the only person who approaches her is one of the men who tried to assault her. He makes it clear that whatever Mack did was not enough to dissuade him, but luckily Mack is there and reminds the man why he shouldn’t bother Adena. This time, he lets Adena punch her attacker. The man slinks off, and Mack decides to buy them some sticky buns for breakfast. While he’s gone, a guard approaches Adena. She’s wanted to see Paedyn at the palace, to become her seamstress during the Trials. Adena is excited but wants to let Mack know before she disappears with the guard. He is distraught. He needs Adena for the mission. She tries to explain that it will be even easier for him now but no. He explains that he’s not a Phaser at all. He’s a Wielder like Prince Kai. He needs Adena nearby to be able to phase at all. And he wasn’t going to see Hera; he was going to rescue her. Get her out of the palace. He would probably die doing it, but it would be worth it to save Hera and besides, his life won’t be long anyway. Some believe that Kai is the only Wielder because of chance. Some believe that the king has systematically removed any other Wielder’s to ensure that Kai is the most powerful of the Elites. Mack is in the second category and as soon as the king finds out what he can do, his life is forfeit. Adena is outraged. Mack only ever wanted to use her! He tries to tell her that Hera is the only thing he has left but Adena corrects him. He used to have her, too. Mack walks back to his shop. He’s gotten in too deep with Adena, he cares too much. He should have turned himself in all those years ago like his father wanted him to but instead, he’s hidden, his power making him weak. And now look at what’s happened to him. He will need to revise his plan and sneak in as a guard, hoping that Adena’s uniform will pass muster and not get him caught. He needs to rescue Hera and get her out of this country, and possibly himself too if he can manage it. But he can see a stark line delineating his life. Before Adena… and after. He had never been happy before he met Adena and has known all along that he was not right for her and her bubbly, sunshiny personality. But now that he knows her, has experienced being with her, he knows he will never again be happy without her either. Adena is alone in the palace working furiously, trying to get Pae’s dress finished in time for the ball and angrily replaying what happened with Mack in her head, when someone appears in the room with her. He just sort of comes through the wall. It’s Mack, who has broken into the palace dressed as a guard and followed the feel of her power to find her. He wants to explain. She’s very angry but he tells her that she is the first person that he’s ever cared about. Hera’s different. Hera is his cousin, and they ran away together when he was young, and she was even younger. He’s had to take care of her because it was his fault they had to run. But Adena is the first person that he wants to make happy. She tries to convince him to leave, being in the palace is too dangerous and here, in this room were guards never come, is more dangerous still. But he almost doesn’t leave. Finally, he asks her to come see him before phasing back out of the room. Soon after, she gets another unexpected visitor: Prince Kitt. They chat a little bit and Adena mentions that Pae seems to like him. He’s surprised; he thought Pae hated him. Before he leaves, he asks for advice from Adena on how to win Pae over. She says the one thing Pae values most is honesty. Be honest with her and really listen to what she has to say, be receptive to her thoughts and ideas. Mack is kicking himself that night. He completely failed Hera. He made it into the palace and instead of finding her, he was drawn to Adena instead. What was he doing?! He can’t believe the things he said to her. What was he thinking?! The ball will be the next day and then the trial will start, there will be no way for him to save Hera now. Adena comes through a wall, surprising him. He asked Adena to come but he didn’t believe she actually would. Everybody is always disappointing him. She has come to make him pay his end of a bargain. When she agreed to stay with him after she was followed, he agreed to stay one night in the fort with her. It’s time for him to pay up. Once they are at the fort, she asks him questions and the whole tale of his background comes out. He was born to a Sight and a Bluff in the slums, unexpected and unwanted. They could barely feed themselves let alone a child. It was assumed that Mack had some mundane power that hadn’t presented yet when he finally showed a power. His parents thought he was just a late bloomer, but then he used another power. And another. And they realized what he was and how dangerous it was to have him. They hid him inside their home, mostly for their own sake instead of concern for him. When Hera showed up one day at their house after her parents died, she started to live with them. She and Mack bonded. His father would come home drunk and angry; Mack would take the brunt of the abuse to save his mom and Hera. Then one night his dad came home and found Mack and Hera laughing about something. That really set Mack’s father off. He drew a sword, something he’d never done before. He claimed that Mack had no reason to laugh since he was the cause of all their problems and mentioned that he and Mack’s mother should have just turned him in to the king when they realized he was a Wielder. They should just do it still. Mack fought back against his father, it’s how he got the scar on his lip that Adena is so infatuated with, and he and Hera ran away together. They’ve lived alone in the slums ever since, unbothered by his parents who are still alive. He became a blacksmith out of spite since that was what his father was. Adena is horrified at what he went through. He tells her his full name: Makoto Kitan. Adena is back in the palace. The first trial has been going on for almost a week, but Adena has been distracting herself by sneaking out to see Mack every night. Ellie knows about her trysts but does not know who she’s seeing, they’ve become friends. Adena leaves Ellie to go see Mack and runs right into the king. She apologizes and he asks who she is. It comes out that she is a friend of Pae’s who is working as her seamstress for the trials. The king reveals that Pae survived the trial, but Sadie and Hera did not. The conversation gets weird and ends with the king telling her that he’s sure they will be seeing each other again. Adena is in a hurry to get to Mack after hearing about Hera’s death. When she gets to his workshop, he’s distraught. He’s already heard the news, he saw it on a flyer, and he keeps repeating that it should have been him. Adena makes it her personal mission to make Mack smile again after Hera’s death. It’s hard won, but he slowly starts to open up again. Which is good, because he only just started smiling in the first place. She insists that he stay at the fort again, she decides they’ll do it the night before each of the trials. Mack puts up a fight (why sleep on the ground when he has a bed) but finally gives in. While there, Adena gives him a gift she’s been working on. She took the extra leather from when she made the mask for his imperial guard uniform and has created a weapons belt for him, specific to his needs. He is amazed that someone made this for him (it’s the only gift he’s ever received) and he thinks it’s absolutely perfect. They gaze at the stars together and come to terms with the fact that they don’t want to be apart. They begin to think - separately - that they’re falling in love. Adena makes Mack another gift. This one is a vest like what she made for Paedyn but in black. Things have been very flirty but not in an overt way. No one is quite sure what the other person feels. But that is put to rest when Mack offers to cut Adena‘s bangs for her (Pae usually does it and they’re getting too long). They’re so close and tension is so high that Adena kisses him quickly. Mack follows that up with a real kiss. They admit that they’re falling for each other. She wishes she could stay, but Adena has to go back to the palace that night. Adena meets Kai for the first time and they’re having a nice conversation where he says he doesn’t want to change Paedyn and Adena decides that this prince is the one for Pae. Then Adena and Ellie prepare Pae for the ball. Afterward, Adena starts to walk through the halls, preparing to leave to meet Mack when she is stopped by a guard. The king wants to speak to her. It’s the night before the next trial starts, when Adena and Mack are supposed to stay at the fort. He gets to the fort first, excited for her to show up. He has purchased the first ever present that he wanted to give someone. A needle decorated with tiny half-moons. But Adena doesn’t show up. At first, he worries about her, but then he realizes she probably just had a work emergency. When she shows up, she will probably be apologetic - and he will be able to trade forgiveness for kisses. He begins the walk back to his workshop, excited that he won’t have to sleep on the ground while in the fort, and he sees a notice about the trials. The next trial will be in the Bowl, and everyone is encouraged to attend. He’s never gone to the Trials since he tries to stay as far away from the royals as possible, lest one of them realize what he can do. But Adena will be in the Bowl to watch Pae. He will be able to sit with her, hold her hand, comfort her as she grieves and worries. He decides to attend. Adena is in a cell alone. They’ve broken all of her fingers, and she doesn’t even know why they’ve arrested her. She’s hungry and the bread they’ve thrown to her is in the corner, she can’t reach it. Her stomach grumbles so loud that someone tells her to be quiet. Another prisoner, who eventually introduces himself as Al. He doesn’t have any nicknames like Adena, he’s never known anyone long enough for that. He never knew his parents and anyone who comes to the dungeons don’t stay for long. He doesn’t say why he’s imprisoned. Soon the guards come and get Adena. Her world goes black. Mack reaches the Bowl and is amazed by the crowd and the size of the venue. The trial has started, and the contestants get instructions given to them. Make it to the center of the maze and kill the person they find there. Mack looks for Adena, searching for the feel of her power. He catches a faint brush of her power and follows it down the steps. It continues to grow stronger until he reaches the wall of the Pit. Then he sees that the person waiting at the center of the maze that is sentenced to death is Adena. Adena wakes up in the Pit confused. Why is she there? What is happening? She tries to be patient until Pae finds here, Adena is sure that she will. And she does. As Pae spots Adena and runs toward her, Adena tries to cry out toward her. Then Adena feels it. A branch through her chest. Pae catches her as she falls. Adena knows that she’s dying. Before she goes, she makes Pae promise to wear the vest she made for her. Mack watches as Adena is stabbed. He hopes that Paedyn can get there in time to save her but is dismayed to see that Paedyn can do nothing. He watches as Adena dies. He wishes it were him. He wishes he could go with her. He feels the needle still in his pocket, waiting to be given to her.

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All the spoilers ahead... Kai gets his first mission from Kitt (to find Pae), heading to the kitchens right after. Every year he does the same thing on this specific day and Gail, who works in the kitchens, has a sticky bun ready for him. He takes the bun to the willow tree and he sits underneath it. He apologizes since he couldn’t find a candle this year, then wishes “A” a happy birthday. Pae has been in her old house hiding but it’s time she left the city. She’s been there for three days, and the head start Kai gave her is now up. She packs a bag with food and water, pulling weapons out of a secret compartment under the floorboards, preparing to cross the desert and go to Dor. When she is almost ready to leave, she realizes it’s too quiet outside. She has just enough time to hide herself in the chimney before a Brawny breaks the door down. Kai is there with soldiers, and they search the house but don’t find Pae. Soon Kai tells the others to leave then he sets the house on fire. Kai walks out of the house, unsure if he is disappointed or relieved that Pae was not inside. He thinks for a moment that he sees a flash of silver, but it’s gone a second later and he thinks it was just a trick of his mind until one of the soldiers sees Pae on the roof, jumping to the roof next door. He orders the soldiers to go after her and throws the dagger at her, hitting her in the thigh so she cannot jump from rooftop to rooftop anymore. But still his soldiers cannot bring her in. He finds one of them dead, killed by her knife, and buries the body, knowing that it’s what she would have wanted. Pae watches Kai from the rooftop where she wrapped her new cut. She sees him carry the guard off to bury him. It’s so much easier to hate him when she doesn’t see this part of him and only remembers him as the Enforcer who killed her father. She stays on the roof until evening when the people of Loot start to meander back into the slums, Kai had it emptied earlier in the day to better be able to find her. She sneaks to the edge of the city where the gate leads to the desert, avoiding guards and even knocking one unconscious. She has her father’s coat and pack as well as the vest Adena made for her. She enters the Scorches. Kai meets with Kitt at the palace, he hasn’t left the study since his coronation and he looks terrible. Kai is not sure now where his brother ends and his king starts. This is a new dynamic for them and Kitt is acting more like their father, which Kai does not like. After trying unsuccessfully to get Kitt to eat or sleep, Kai explains that Paedyn was at the house and was injured but they did not catch her. He thinks she plans to cross the desert and will take some men to follow her. Kitt is not confident that Kai will bring Paedyn in. After all, he knows about all the times that Kai banished a child that was Ordinary instead of killing them, going against their father’s direct orders. What if Kai decides he has a “good reason” to let Pae go, too? It can’t be easy with the feelings that Kai has for her. Kai bites back, the same goes for Kitt, but they both announce that their feelings for Pae died when she killed their dad. They both know it’s a lie, but they say nothing else. Kai agrees that he will bring Pae to Kitt (Kitt clarifies to bring her alive) and hands Kitt the ring he got when he became Enforcer. He asks Kitt to return it when he has earned his king’s trust. Pae has been in the desert for three days. She’s running low on water, she’s sore, she has blisters forming, she might have a fever, and she hasn’t slept for more than a couple hours at a time. If it’s not the nightmares about Adena’s death waking her, it’s the fear of scorpions. And there’s no sign of any civilization. But she will keep going, she will survive. For Adena. To avenge her death. Kai dreams of Pae. It quickly turns from a dream where she gives him forget-me-nots to a nightmare where she is covered in his father’s blood and wondering aloud why it’s okay for him to kill but not for her. He wakes up. He may have been screaming. He has been in the desert for four days with no sign of her. Maybe she’s already dead. The plan is to search Dor before moving on and searching Tando if they can’t find her. Pae isn’t sure if she’s been in the desert for five or six days, but what she does know is she’s out of water. She is going to die… if she’s not already dead. She tries to fight sleep, but it overcomes her. She wakes up while being carried and immediately believes she’s been found by Kai. She breaks the wrist holding her and is released but soon realizes it’s not Kai but a guard who saw her lying unconscious from his outpost and who came to help her. She apologizes but he’s not real impressed. He suddenly puts together why she looks so familiar. There are wanted posters labeling her as a king killer that have been distributed to all the nearby cities, including the ones you can only reach by ship. They list a sizable reward for her return, dead or alive. The guard attacks her but Pae stabs him in the heart. Who has she become? This is the third person she’s killed in eight, maybe nine days. Kai finds the murdered guard the next day and knows that Pae is close. His guards take the body back to the city. In Dor, Elites are reviled. Here, Kai is on the back foot. He sends his guards in different directions, splitting them up to gather information in the city. He will be less easily recognized this way. Pae has been in Dor for a few days, stealing to survive and hiding her hair with the scarves the people wear to protect their faces from the sand. But she needs to make some money. The people of Dor are rougher than what’s she’s used to and more protective of their purses, but she stumbles across some men talking about a betting ring. She follows them to where a crowd watches an underground fighting ring but it’s too crowded to pick any pockets. She decides to get in the ring instead, but she’s forced to blackmail the ringleader for a chance to fight. Kai is walking alone through the city even though without the guards he brought with him, he has no Elites to draw power from. He feels someone try to take his coin purse and trips them. He realizes it’s Abigail, the girl he sent into the desert instead of killing. He reminds her of who he is and asks if she has heard anything about the Silver Savior, but Abigail can’t chat with him for long. She hasn’t collected much money today so she’s going to go to the fights and see what she can steal there. He follows her, wondering what he created when he gave her the chance to live. The girl reminds him so much of Pae. After Pae threatened to tell the authorities about his illicit gambling ring, she was allowed to fight under the name “Shadow”. She dresses herself in baggy clothes, so the viewers assume that she’s a man. Tonight, she fights a fan favorite named Slick who is huge and slippery, but she manages to bring him down anyway. She has made more money in the last few nights fighting than she ever did stealing in Loot. She heads over to the leader of the gambling ring, Rafael, to collect her winnings - it’s the most she’s brought in yet - and Rafael wants to set her up with a nightly fight. That sounds agreeable to Pae. But then someone asks her if she has enough in her for another fight that night and she recognizes the voice. Kai has found her. Kitt still hasn’t left the study since he became king. He thinks his father would like who he’s becoming. Someone ruthless. Someone more like Kai. He thinks that’s why their father hated Kai, because Kitt was heir as the firstborn son, but Kai was what their father thought a king should be. Kai knew Shadow was Pae almost as soon as he saw her fighting. He gives Rafael the name Flame to fight under, but Rafael says to give Shadow a few minutes to rest before fighting again. Of course, Pae tries to slip away in the crowd during those few moments, but Kai isn’t about to allow that. He follows her to a rooftop where she meets him with a dagger. She proposes a deal. If she wins the fight, he lets her go. If he wins, she goes quietly back to Ilya with him. In this time, she manages to take her father’s dagger from Kai, which he has been carrying since removing it from his own father’s body, and then losing it again when he kisses her and she drops it on the rooftop. They return to the arena and fight, but their agreement has not officially been made. She is doing well in the fight, but he reminds her that all he has to do to win is remove her scarf and reveal her identity. Everyone here will want to claim the reward for her return. He won as soon as he entered the cage. But she tells him that the Prince of Ilya always has a price on his head too and rips the bandanna away from his face. They continue to fight but eventually Pae agrees to come quietly to Ilya. They’ll need to finish the match up quickly. She pretends to be ready to tap out but gets the upper hand, removes the dagger he isn’t supposed to have in the cage, and puts it to his face. She should just kill him. She should have done it on the roof where no one would’ve seen it happen. Before she can do anything, he removes the scarf hiding her hair. The crowd immediately realizes who she is and she can hear the murmurs. Kai is now the only way she’s getting out of the crowd unharmed. He announces that he is the Enforcer of Ilya and he will be taking her with him, escorting her into the alleyway. There they begin to argue. She killed a king, yes, but she also killed a tyrant and a murderer. Kai points out that he was also his father. That’s when she reveals that she saw Kai kill her father five years ago. He hadn’t realized that he had been the one that killed her dad until now and while he’s stunned, she’s able to grab a dagger she had concealed and slice his shoulder before running away. The other imperial guards have found them and are approaching Kai. Kai runs after Pae and eventually catches her by throwing a dagger at her thigh again and reopening the wound he gave her earlier, all while reeling over the fact that he killed her dad. Once caught, she has no choice but to go with him since she will bleed out otherwise. They stay in a hotel room together (she’s on the bed; he’s on the floor with the blanket and pillow). He tells her that he didn’t know. When he first started going on missions, he wouldn’t know anything about who or why. His dad called in blind obedience and threatened to kill him if he didn’t follow orders. The day he killed her father, he didn’t even know he would have to kill someone. They get started early the next morning to make their way back to Ilya, but Pae cannot keep up. Her leg is bleeding again. Kai has to stop her in an alleyway and sacrifice the bottom hem of his shirt to create a makeshift bandage for her leg. Pae insists that while he killed her father, she killed a monster. They are not the same. Kai knows he no longer loved his father before he died, is the way he feels some sort of devotion triggered by his death? Kitt still hasn’t left the study and he’s not eating much, tossing his uneaten food out the window so that Gail doesn’t force feed him. Andy comes to visit him, making up an excuse about a broken window since he’s not allowing any visitors in. She tells him that both she and Jax miss him, but Kitt feels like he’s drowning. He doesn’t know what to do without his father there to tell him. Andy begs Kitt to let her help him, but he dismisses her instead, as her king. Kai and Pae get to the desert where one of the imperial guards grabs Pae by the hair. It’s not clear what he plans to do because Kai lets him know quickly that he has no problem killing anyone who lays a hand on Pae. The guard quickly lets her go. They plan to cross the Scorches by horse, but Pae refuses to get on (she also refuses to admit she’s afraid of them) and opts to walk next to the horses instead. Once they’re miles away from the city and Pae has started lagging behind, Kai heals her leg with his power. She would have made a run for it if he’d done it sooner. Not long after that, she decides to try riding a horse. Her real plan goes exactly how she wants it to. When Kai lifts her to the saddle, she freaks out and pushes away, knocking them both to the ground and grabbing one of his daggers in the chaos. She drops it handle first down the back of her pants until it sits in her pant leg. She nicks her ankle with it, but not badly. Then she declares she’s ready to mount for real this time and Kai places her in the saddle, riding directly behind her. She falls asleep as they ride, sleeping on the chest of the man taking her to her doom and sleeping better than she has in some time. When they break for the evening, Kai sets her up in a bedroll next to his. They discuss Ilya. Pae gives him her thoughts. Ilya was always small and feared being conquered, when the plague took half their people that fear was at an all-time high. So, when the Elites were created, it was like a wish being granted. But as for Ordinaries weakening the Elites, it’s not from some illness but because if an Elite has a child with an Ordinary, that child is also born Ordinary. It is greed that made the king purge the Ordinaries. And now their kingdom is weaker than ever. They have limited space that is running out, resources that can’t even take care of the people they already have, and they’re surrounded by countries that hate them with zero allies. She asks Kai if it ever occurred to him that Elites should not exist at all. He doesn’t answer and they fall asleep. He wakes up as people surround the camp and shoot arrows into the guards. Then Pae puts the stolen dagger to Kai’s throat. Pae’s resistance friends have found her. They kill the other guards, tie up Kai, and prepare to ride back to Dor. Pae rides with Lenny while Leena and Finn bicker behind them. They explain to Pae that the Resistance is done. They believe Calum and Mira were taken and are being held in the dungeons. The Resistance was completely overrun by guards in the Bowl, anyone who was not killed has fled, which is why they were on their way to Dor when they saw the fire from Pae’s camp. Pae tells them what happened with the king and asks how the citizens are doing. To put it mildly, she is not well liked in Ilya right now. In addition, the rumor is that Kitt has gone mad, locking himself in the office and refusing to eat. And Kai’s mom, the queen, is dying. She may only have a few days left. Pae looks at Kai who has a mother dying at home and was still sent away by his brother. Did he even get to say goodbye to her first? Lenny takes them into Dor and leads them straight to… his mother, Meredith (Crawler). She’s surrounded by people. She explains that these people were born to one Elite parent and one Ordinary parent, and they are neither. They have some power but not enough to be considered Elite. In Dor, they try to blend in with the people but are not liked if their secret powers are discovered. But in Ilya they’d be killed. Meredith took as many in as possible when she lived in Loot, the came to Dor when there were too many to house. After she went to Dor, Lenny would send any Mixes that he found to find her. Meredith suggests that Pae use Kai as leverage for her freedom. Lenny and Pae go over the plan to secure Pae’s freedom. They’ll take Kai back to Ilya tomorrow. Lenny will inform Kitt where to meet them in order to trade for Kai, he’s to bring no more than three guards. They’ll make the trade and head back to Dor without the prince, free as a bird. That evening when Kai lays next to Pae, he tells her the plan won’t work. He’s not so sure he’s that important to Kitt the King like he was to Kitt the Prince. Pae brushes off his concern and they fall asleep. While sleeping, they are drugged, hooded, and thrown into a dungeon where they wake up back-to-back with their hands tied together. Pae starts to panic from being in the confined space, but Kai intertwines their fingers and helps her breathe through it. Soon, their captor is revealed. Rafael has had spies planted all around the city waiting to catch a glimpse of her. How lucky is he that he will now be able to collect the prize for her and barter for the King’s brother too! Rafael leaves them alone for the moment, telling them the sewers are beneath them and they’re due to be flushed any day. They need to find a way out of here fast. Kitt gets a visitor. The visitor reminds him that he has yet to address his people. He makes a suggestion and hands Kitt a small box. Kitt’s life is no longer just his and this sacrifice will be for the good of his people. Just as Kitt’s dad always said, to be a great king you must be brave, benevolent, and brutal. Kitt takes the box from Calum. If Kai and Pae work together, they can make it to a standing position and use a sharp edge of the cell to fray the rope at their hands. It takes several tries, during which they’re interrupted by a guard bringing them food and water and are forced to sit like they aren’t trying to escape. In this time, they try to distract each other. Pae asks Kai if he regrets anything that happened between them, but he doesn’t answer right away. When the rope is frayed enough, they wait for the next guard to come. They break their binding, knock the guard out, take his key, and run for the sewer grate. Kai deviates slightly to grab a chain from the wall. They can hear people behind them, desperate and greedy for the reward money, so Kai and Paedyn run down the sewer. The water is beginning to rise as they run. By the time they get to the dead end, the water is at Pae’s chest. Kai tries unsuccessfully to find a way out but soon succumbs to the idea that they’re going to die. He tells Pae he doesn’t regret any of it. Not from before, not the kiss the night he found her. What he would regret is what he would have to do if he took her back to Ilya, which he would regret forever. She admits she doesn’t regret anything either, she only regrets not doing it the right way. As the water rises around them, they hold on to each other. They kiss like they’re about to die, which they believe they are. Paedyn wraps her legs around Kai’s waist; she can’t swim and he will keep them afloat for as long as possible. As they rise with the water, Pae feels a slight breeze. She realizes there is a grate that has been covered over. She frantically claws at the stone to uncover it as Kai treads water for both of them. The water quickly rises until their heads are pressed to the top of the tunnel. They push all their weight against the grate as the water goes over their heads. With one final push as his lungs strain with the lack of oxygen, Kai manages to move the grate. He sees Pae sinking and swims to grab her. He pushes her out of the tunnel into the open air with the last of his strength. He sinks to the bottom, content to die as long as Paedyn has been saved. Pae coughs up some water and then realizes Kai is drowning. She jumps back in to save him, pushing him toward the grate before pulling herself up onto the ground with one arm, the other keeping Kai above water. Once she’s out, she sees the chain he is wearing around his neck and tosses it away, managing to pull him the rest of the way out of the water. She does some chest compressions, and Kai starts breathing again, coughing and retching. Once he can speak, she jokes to relieve the tension. Drowning is not how she intends to die. She wants to be stabbed through the heart like the people she loved. Not my personal choice, but whatever. He apologizes for starting that trend and ruins the whole mood. They lean together again, but he ruins everything a second time by clamping a manacle on her ankle. It’s the chain he brought from the cell. He snaps the opposite end on his own ankle, tying them together. This way, he can make sure she gets back to Ilya. Kai leads them toward an inn where they’ll be able to sleep, though I’m interested in how he plans to get out of his wet pants with a chain on his ankle. He convinces Pae to steal a flowy skirt to hide the chain between them, all the while hating that she hates him again and likely thinks that the kisses they shared were just a ploy to trap her. They break into an empty room of the inn where Pae proceeds to bathe, with her pants still on. She asks Kai to throw her the shirt from her pack, which he does. He finds a book in the bag that she saved from her house before it burned. It’s one of her father’s books, full of a Healer’s work and theories. Pae wrings out her wet clothes and Kai goes to bathe next. They sleep next to each other on the bed that night as the temperature drops. They “pretend” not to hate each other, their mantra for when they need to be close to each other. I’m the morning, Pae puts her flowy skirt on over her pants, her green vest on, and her scarf over her hair as they discuss what happens next. Instead of going through the Scorches, Kai wants to go through the Sanctuary of Souls, filled with rocky terrain and bandits. He’s been there plenty of times and thinks they’ll be fine. He’s pulling his bandanna over his face when the innkeeper bangs on the door. They escape through the window, but the innkeeper follows them and they need to lose him. Kai grabs a hat on his way past a vendor and pulls Pae into an alley. He removes her skirt and scarf, putting the hat on her head while removing his bandanna and kissing her in the alley. When the guards pass them, they don’t bother stopping the lovers in the alley as the Kai and Pae “pretend” again. Kitt thinks about the box that Calum brought him, that Calum tries to convince Kitt is the right thing to do. He wonders where Kai is. He should be back by now, but maybe he took Pae and ran. Maybe they ran away together. Kitt decides he’s done grieving for his father, who doesn’t deserve it anyway. He misses who he used to be. He misses being a good brother to Kai and Jax. He searches for the box and a clean piece of paper. He writes a letter to his dead father. Then he writes a letter to Pae, who he writes to fairly often. His thoughts turn from “he should be back by now” to “she should be back by now.” Paedyn somehow managed to get a dagger and tried to pick the lock on her shackles while Kai slept, threatening him with the dagger when he woke until he bound her hands too. But now that he’s awake and they need to get through the rest of the city unbothered, he cuts her bindings. They walk through the city, passing posters with her face on them as they try to be as inconspicuous as possible. Unfortunately, a man passing them spots the chain. They think they’re safe when he cracks a few ball and chain jokes then leaves, but the man circles around with a couple of his friends. He recognized Pae from her posters. Kai and Pae run, she pulls him into the doorway of what turns out to be a brothel. He sits down at a table with men playing cards and asks to be dealt into the next game, pulling Pae onto his lap and telling her to act normal. When another woman comes over and offers to take Pae’s place, she gets quite jealous. Then two of the men chasing them walk through the door. Kai and Pae play the part of gambler and his good luck charm as the men walk through the hall looking at everyone. She has removed her vest and swapped her head scarf for her floppy hat. He has pulled down his bandanna and hides his face close to her shoulder as she plays with the back of his neck, draping herself across him. After the men study them and move on, Kai wins the hand. The two of them collect his winnings and calmly walk out of the hall while the men continue to walk through the tables. They continue on their way through the city and eventually, Pae asks if Kai thinks Kitt is worried about him. He responds that if Kitt is worried, it’s only because of Pae. Kitt doesn’t know what Pae plans to do, and she already killed their father. Pae insists that killing the king wasn’t her plan. Besides, is Kai any better? But Kai has always believed he was a monster. He tells her that he didn’t plan on killing her dad. He didn’t know that was his mission when he started out that day and when he saw her dad sleeping, he wasn’t going to do it at all. But then her dad woke up and saw him. Kai panicked and stabbed him in the chest, then went outside and vomited. It was the panic that caused him to do exactly what the king wanted, when he was about to disobey orders and walk back out of the house. The continue toward the Sanctuary of Souls, not talking since Kai’s last confession. At one point, they stop so he can braid her hair. He tells her that she is the only person he’s ever braided the hair of other than Ava, his sister. She would be eleven now. Her birthday was a few weeks ago, the day he took the sticky bun to the willow tree where she is buried. His mother had been advised not to have more children after Kai, but Ava had been an accident. When she was born, the queen nearly died and Ava was born sickly. The king ordered anyone who knew about Ava to keep her secret, so the populace had no idea she even existed. She was sickly as she grew up, and Kai loved her an incredible amount. She inspired him with her happiness. She died when she was four and no one talks about her anymore. But he still visits her grave whenever he can, like when Pae found him under the willow during the trials. They continue on, sleeping in a hayloft near the edge of Dor that night. He wonders why Pae is an Ordinary. If her father was a Healer, shouldn’t she be a mix and have at least some ability, like the others they met? He wakes her in the morning, intent on getting out of the loft and stealing a horse before a stable worker comes in. They almost make it. But after a brief fight with the stable worker, they ride off on a horse together with the chain stretched between them. They ride for a while, and he falls asleep on the horse. She tries to wrest the reins from him, but he wakes up and thwarts her attempt. That night, she asks why he told her about Ava, and he agrees to answer in exchange for a dance - the same game they had during the trials. As they dance, he explains that Ava was a Crawler but as she got sicker, she got weaker and would fall. He used to kiss her fingertips to “give” her some of his power. She particularly liked it when he kissed her thumbs, so he did it for her every day. During the trials when Pae found him under the willow tree, he was very drunk. That evening was the ball, and he’d gotten very jealous of the way Pae was acting with Kitt. When Kai asked Pae to dance with him, he kissed her hand after the dance. Then he kissed the pad of her thumb without even thinking about it. He thinks that Pae reminds him of who Ava could have been. Someone formidable. Of someone he would have wanted Ava to be like. He tells her that his feelings for her went against every order he’d ever been given. Pae tells him that she can’t dance because her father never taught her. Instead, he would let her stand on his feet and would dance them both around until she fell asleep. Kai apologizes again for the hurt he’s caused her. Kai watches Pae sleep in the morning, content to wait for her to wake up. He makes a startling realization. He still wants her, even knowing everything that he knows now. That she is Ordinary. That she killed his father. And he knows that their crimes are different. She killed a man he hated in self-defense while he murdered a man she loved. When she wakes up, she realizes that he’s hurt and cleans a wound on his side that he got from his fight with the stable hand which reopened during the night. But seeing the wound makes her squeamish. He takes over cleaning it and they discuss why she never left Ilya. Mostly, it was the only thing in her life she had any control over, and she wouldn’t let anyone force her to leave. It’s the same reason that Kai helped the Ordinary children to escape Ilya. He didn’t have control over anything else. He tells her about how he ran into one of the children he saved in Dor. As they prepare to hit the road, she asks him to teach her to ride a horse. Kitt emerges from the study for the first time, he keeps the small box in his pocket. He eventually is brought into the kitchens where Gail speaks to him alone. She asks how he’s doing, and he claims to be doing better. She asks what his plan is for Pae when Kai returns with her, but Kitt isn’t so sure he will. Gail insists that Kai will bring Pae back because he loves Kitt, not just because of his duty, but Kitt wonders if Kai loves Pae even more. He spots a candle on the counter; Gail had found one for Kai to take to Ava’s grave but too late. Kitt realizes he forgot about Ava’s birthday and guilt makes him retreat back to the study alone. Kai and Pae ride along the Sanctuary of Souls road, Pae steering the horse, and collecting discarded arrows in case they run into some of the fabled bandits. They hope to find a discarded bow at some point too. Pae sees something shimmering up a hill and they climb up, finding a bow and a small pool of water. They go for a swim, and emotions get the better of them again. They end up kissing, but this one feels different. It’s not out of spite, not out of terror, but just out of wanting. It starts to rain while they’re in the pool. When they finally leave the pool and climb down the hill, they find that the lightning scared off the horse and all their things are soaked. They find shelter under a small overhang and Kai gathers firewood but it’s too wet to catch on its own. Pae offers a few pages from her father’s journal to use as kindling which Kai does not want to accept, but she insists it’s just recipes and notes about patients. But toward the end of the book, she notices it’s an actual journal. Her father started writing in it ten years before she was born. Her dad explains how the king is trying to bribe him into leaving the slums as he has done with all the other Healers. The king offers them an exorbitant amount of money to leave the poor and the Mundanes, and only treat the strong Elites. Even the Mundanes are not strong enough for the king to care about, since he believes they will weaken the stronger Elites. The king pays the Healers to perpetuate the lie that the Ordinaries have a disease that weakens Elites and the Healers do what he wants out of greed. For money and for power. This really shakes Kai. He has to believe that the illness is real, otherwise all the atrocities he’s committed are even worse, done out of greed instead of to protect the citizens of Ilya. The journal continues to describe how the Resistance was started, how Pae’s dad met Calum, how the Resistance grew until it was no longer safe for everyone to meet at once. How his wife died weeks before Pae was born, their daughter with her. How Pae was dropped off on his doorstep because she was Ordinary and he adopted her as his own. His own struggle with whether or not to tell Pae the truth. She cannot believe this; it destroys everything she ever believed. Kai insists that it doesn’t, Adam Gray was her father because he chose Pae and he loved her more than anything else. Having a parent by blood still doesn’t guarantee that they will care. In the morning, the world looks completely different for both of them. Kai decides that he is going to show Kitt the journal when they get to Ilya. He explains that he doesn’t want to take Pae to Kitt, but he has to. He wants to talk about their kiss, which she’s avoiding, but before they get far that day Kai hears a twig snap behind him. The bandits have found them. He shields her with her body and puts a hand over her mouth as he’s shot in the shoulder. Kai’s wound is pretty bad and makes his arm pretty much useless; he won’t be able to help fight the bandits off. He and Pae run to an outcropping of stones that they crouch behind. Pae has a limited number of arrows and she makes them count, killing four bandits quickly. Her death count is up to 7 now but she won’t let any of these bandits hurt Kai again. That thought scares her. After the fourth bandit is killed, it seems that there are no more bandits. They need to find shelter to clean Kai’s wound, and the caves should be close by. Originally, this road was planned to be a path to burial grounds for the royals of Ilya - hence the name Sanctuary of Souls. But only one person was buried there before bandits took over and the idea was abandoned. The caves that were going to be the resting places of the royals are up ahead. On their way to the caves, a fifth bandit steps out and shoots at Kai. Without thinking, Pae steps in front of the arrow. She manages to knock it out of the air with her bow (everybody is amazed) and the realization that she would sacrifice everything for Kai, even herself, astounds her. Kai kills the fifth bandit with his dagger. It hurts and it certainly isn’t good for his wound, but he can’t let Pae keep killing for him. His soul is already damned; he needs to make sure hers is not. They find a cave and Kai admits a secret to Pae. He is sometimes jealous that she is the one that killed his father. He spent so much time thinking about doing just that. Pae cleans Kai’s wound. The sight of his blood on her hands, in her hair, causes her to have a panic attack. She asks him to cut her hair for her. It is a constant reminder of those she lost, and she is drowning under it. After briefly asking her to reconsider, he does what she asks, then sits with her and cares for her as best as he can she cries. As best as she will allow him to. Kitt visits Ava’s grave and apologizes to her for missing her birthday. They he finally goes to see Kai’s mom as she lays dying of grief. Jax is there already and for a moment, Kitt is able to be his old self again. When he sees the queen, she apologizes for not making more of an effort with him when she had the chance, to create a real relationship between them. She tells Kitt that he looks just like his dad and gives a brief history. She and Kitt’s father didn’t want to marry at first. After Kitt’s mom died, Kai’s mom was just the easiest way to get another heir, since she was the daughter of his most trusted advisor and the king didn’t need to court her first. But love grew between them over time. She insists that his father was proud of him and tells Kitt that his dad wrote him letters to help him find his way. They’re in a drawer of what is now Kitt’s desk that he hasn’t been able to open yet. Kai and Pae are on the last leg of their journey back to Ilya and Kai shows her the Field, full of poppies. They decide to spend one final night together before continuing, pretending for one more night. The make poppy flower crowns (Kai’s just keeps falling apart) but then Kai sees something that Pae has been hiding. The “O” that his father carved on Paedyn, branding her as Ordinary forever and never allowing her to forget who it was that did it. But Kai insists that it is a testament to who she is, that she withstood torture and killed the man who inflicted it. This makes her crime less offensive too, evidence that it was self-defense. The next morning, their time is up. Kai wakes her up but before they start walking, they have a heart to heart. Kai tells her that who he is is not good enough for her, so if she tells him who she wants him to be and he will be that instead. But she wants him for who he is already, without a mask. Though it would be easier for them both if they hated each other. But it’s too late for that. He’s never had a choice about anything. About his life, who he was made to be, the career he was given, missions would go on, her. He was never given the choice about whether to fall in love with her, which he has. She won’t say it back, can’t say it back since every person she’s loved has left her and she doesn’t want Kai to leave too, but he understands what she’s not saying. He doesn’t blame her for what she did to his father, and she forgives him for what he did to hers. She knows that he was too young, didn’t understand, didn’t have a choice or the strength to go against his father at the time. He urges her to run. Kitt already suspected that Kai wouldn’t be able to bring Pae back, so he won’t be surprised. She needs to run and get as far away from Ilya as she can. He will delay the search for her for as long as possible. But Pae is tired of running. Which is good, because the time for running is now over. Guards have spotted them and are already approaching. Kai picks up his pack and tells Pae to trust him and follow his lead, he’s going to fix everything. Two guards approach them and Kai yells at them for taking so long. They remove the shackles from Kai and Pae’s legs, cutting Pae’s ankle as they do so, and Kai takes Pae into the city. Kitt is in the throne room, so they go directly there. Kai walks her into the throne room, in front of what seems like every noble in the country, and forces her to kneel at Kitt’s feet. Kitt welcomes Kai home. He asks if there were any unforeseen circumstances between Kai and Pae, quietly asking about the relationship between the two of them, to which Kai responds that there were not. Kitt introduces Pae to the crowd. A previous contestant in the Purging Trials who made it far for a Mundane, except she’d duped them all. She is actually an Ordinary. He asks Pae if she is an Ordinary who worked with the Resistance and passed them information. She says she is. Did she kill the king? She answers yes again. Kitt then announces that he has heard rumors of how he is a mad king - but he is not. He has plans that he will explain to everyone in due time. But rest assured, he’s not mad. Then he tells his subjects that Pae will be his queen. He pulls the box out of his pocket. It has a ring inside. Kai is reeling. He did not see this coming at all. He steps away from Pae as she looks up at Kai. He should have known, he can’t believe he thought for a moment that he would get to be with her. That he would get to be happy.

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